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Ben Caesar

I’ve thought a lot about suicide and near death experiences. I’m not saying I’m going to kill myself or anything. However, I’ve had a lot of passive thoughts about “what’s the point?”. I see life for what it is. We live, we procreate, we die. So the next gen can do it again. What’s my purpose or point? Why bother? What do I have to live for? The near death experiences come in with me being curious about after life. If I knew I’d be okay would I just go there, would that change my mind about my purpose?

Ben Caesar

Once you succeed at everything you realize the ultimate truth. Everything is useless, nothing is permanent, pleasure lasts but a second and is quickly deadened. All ambition is but chasing after the wind. No drug, no lover, no victory, no conquest, no invention, no discovery, no amount of wealth or passion could ever fill the gaping void in the center where the soul is supposed to be but isn’t. All pursuits are a distraction against the inevitability of death. Even achieving the crown dream of humanity, immortality and youth eternal, is but a pitiful delay in the face of the inevitable destruction of all things.