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Category: Jael McHenry

If you don’t know how to deal with emotion, other people’s feelings can hit you like a drug.

aspergers, drug, emotion, emotions, feelings

Everybody struggles with this stuff, you know. With social discomfort and grief and fitting in. People with syndromes, people with disorders, people with diagnoses, and without. People who would be classified as neurotypical. Idiots and geniuses, maids and doctors. Nobody’s got it all figured out.

fitting-in, mental-health, normal

I preferred to think of myself as a cat. If I think of my behavior as cat behavior instead of people behavior, it pretty much always makes sense.

behavior, cat, cats

But I can’t force everything into the arrangement I’d like. I can’t use denial to make everything simple.

denial, perfection

I love it,” I say. “So I learned it.” It’s an explanation that leaves a lot out. But I learned a long time ago that people don’t really want explanations.

explanation, humor, mastery

All I have besides food is grief.

food, foodie, grief

I let myself relax into the pattern of the recipe.

cooking, grief, relaxation

It preoccupies me until it’s time to leave. It seems such the right expression of grief. I am sad, so in whatever small way I can, I will tear myself apart. They’ve taken what’s on the inside and made it visible. If I thought it wouldn’t be inappropriate I’d do it myself.

grief, mourning, tradition

I’m completely out of control, and I can hear the beginnings of the chant, get/out/, but now that I’m not being touched maybe I can master it and I shut the world out: separating an orange into skinless sections. Peel it, but not with your fingers. Level off the top and bottom. Set it on the board. Remove the peel in strips with a paring knife, pushing down from the top to bottom with slow, curved strokes. Nick off all the white parts. Cup the cool, wet skinless fruit in your hand. Take care. Don’t rush. Press the blade into the flesh of the orange, sink it down, a segment at a time, along the left side of the skin and then the right. Left and right. Left and right. As close as you can to the membrane. Press to the center with your knife, level and easy. If you cut right, the segment will fall out onto the board, triangular, gleaming. Left and right. Left and right. If you rush you’ll cut yourself. Take care with it. Cut right along the seam, right where the sweet fruit meets the tough membrane. Let and right. Left and right. As close as you can.

coping-mechanisms, meditation, writing

I will take a new approach to death, because what is important about death is not the dead. It’s the living. Those of us left behind.

dead, death, living

I tell myself I’m fine on my own, but am I? No friends to fall back on, no relationships, no support. Left to my own devices, I have no devices.

alone, friends, introvert, isolation, living, relationships, support

there is something intriguing about knowing how things are going to turn out, but being constantly surprised about how they’ll get there.