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Category: Sara Baume

People don’t like it when you say real things.

a-line-made-by-walking, honesty, sara-baume, truth

But no, now I see I never meant to Ben what Ben meant to me. If there was anything I said which resonated in return, he found a better speech elsewhere. My romance went no further than his coat.

a-line-made-by-walking, sad, sara-baume, unequal-affections, unrequited-love

And I felt like such a failure. I thought: I can’t even do mental illness properly.

a-line-made-by-walking, failure, mental-illness, sara-baume

It’s time to accept that I am average, and to stop making this acceptance of my averageness into a bereavement.

identity-crisis, introspection, self

See how community is only a good thing when you’re a part of it.

isolation, loneliness, longing, outcasts

I lie down and think about how this whole long, strange summer ought to end in a substantial event. But, probably, won’t. For the first time I acknowledge the possibility that nothing will die, or change, or even happen.

a-line-made-by-walking, sara-baume, summer, uneventful

I know with unqualified certainty that I want to die. But I also know with equivalent certainty that I won’t do anything about it. That I will only remain here and wait for death to indulge me.

a-line-made-by-walking, certainty, death, inaction, sara-baume, suicidal, waiting

It’s too warm for red wine; now I mix gin and tonics instead. I find they make the ordinary sensation of living lighter, less ruffled.

a-line-made-by-walking, alcohol, drinking, sara-baume

This morning, I see the lead in my glass tumbler. A slim, bright glint, a silverfish. I feel it collecting in my blood, papercutting the lining of my veins.

a-line-made-by-walking, description, metaphor, sara-baume

This morning, the sun endures past dawn. I realise that it is August: the summer’s last stand.

a-line-made-by-walking, august, sara-baume, summer, sun

What bothered me was all of the time he wasted by drumming, and all the time I wasted by listening to him drum, by taking pleasure in it, for pleasure is almost always a waste of time.

a-line-made-by-walking, pleasure, sara-baume, waste-of-time

Sometimes things happen that give me cause to believe I no longer exist. Car park barriers which do not lift when I drive towards them, automatic doors which do not open automatically as I approach.

a-line-made-by-walking, dead, nonexistent, sara-baume