Well, do you suppose I made up my mind then that what I had seen was something sickening? Not a bit of it. 'If it was done with such assurance and everyone thought it was necessary, then they must have known something I didn't,' was what I thought, and I tried to find out what it was. But I couldn't, no matter how hard I exerted myself. And since I couldn't, I couldn't join the army as I'd planned to, and not only did I not join the army, I couldn't find a place for myself anywhere in society, and ended up being no good for anything, as you can see.'Oh yes, we know all about how you're no good for anything,' said one of us, 'But tell us: how many men would be no good for anything if it weren't for the likes of you?

Well, do you suppose I made up my mind then that what I had seen was something sickening? Not a bit of it. ‘If it was done with such assurance and everyone thought it was necessary, then they must have known something I didn’t,’ was what I thought, and I tried to find out what it was. But I couldn’t, no matter how hard I exerted myself. And since I couldn’t, I couldn’t join the army as I’d planned to, and not only did I not join the army, I couldn’t find a place for myself anywhere in society, and ended up being no good for anything, as you can see.’Oh yes, we know all about how you’re no good for anything,’ said one of us, ‘But tell us: how many men would be no good for anything if it weren’t for the likes of you?