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It’s an unfortunate word, ‘depression’, because the illness has nothing to do with feeling sad, sadness is on the human palette. Depression is a whole other beast. It’s when your old personality has left town and been replaced by a block of cement with black tar oozing through your veins and mind. This is when you can’t decide whether to get a manicure or jump off a cliff. It’s all the same. When I was institutionalised I sat on a chair unable to move for three months, frozen in fear. To take a shower was inconceivable. What made it tolerable was while I was inside, I found my tribe – my people. They understood and unlike those who don’t suffer, never get bored of you asking if it will ever go away? They can talk medication all hours, day and night; heaven to my ears.

It’s an unfortunate word, ‘depression’, because the illness has nothing to do with feeling sad, sadness is on the human palette. Depression is a whole other beast. It’s when your old personality has left town and been replaced by a block of cement with black tar oozing through your veins and mind. This is when you can’t decide whether to get a manicure or jump off a cliff. It’s all the same. When I was institutionalised I sat on a chair unable to move for three months, frozen in fear. To take a shower was inconceivable. What made it tolerable was while I was inside, I found my tribe – my people. They understood and unlike those who don’t suffer, never get bored of you asking if it will ever go away? They can talk medication all hours, day and night; heaven to my ears.