Tag: death, happiness, loss

Tucked inside the moments of this great sadness – this feeling of being punctured, scrambling and stricken – were also moments of the brightest, most swollen and logic shattering happiness I’ve ever experienced. One moment would be a wall of happiness so tall it could not be scaled; the next felt like falling into a pit of sadness that had no bottom. I realized you could not have one without the other, that this great capacity to love and be happy can be experienced only with this great risk of having happiness taken from you – to tremble, always, on the edge of loss.

Tucked inside the moments of this great sadness – this feeling of being punctured, scrambling and stricken – were also moments of the brightest, most swollen and logic shattering happiness I’ve ever experienced. One moment would be a wall of happiness so tall it could not be scaled; the next felt like falling into a pit of sadness that had no bottom. I realized you could not have one without the other, that this great capacity to love and be happy can be experienced only with this great risk of having happiness taken from you – to tremble, always, on the edge of loss.